one more month of my last summer.

all this not getting scheduled has made me dread going to work when someone asks me to take their shift. i mean, i need the money but i hate going to work. i need to find yet another job. i haven't been really looking though. i feel like i won't be able to find another job that lets me come back for winter and summer break. and i don't want to get a job in flagstaff. if i do, i will probably have to work on the weekends. then when will i get to see my boyfriend? i hate this long distance thing, i really really do. especially when i have to go back up to flagstaff for school.

there are so many things i wish i could change or do differently but i just can't...