and today was a day just like any other

so i've been listening to jack's mannequin (the old school stuff- everything in transit) and it brings up old memories. sometimes i wish i could go back to those times. it wasn't all easier back then but i really miss the people that i had in my life. but, friends grow apart. whether it's because of distance or new friends or the fact that everyone has changed, it happens. and even though i may want to go back to my old life sometimes, i know it's better to move on and leave the past behind. i don't necessarily believe "everything happens for a reason" but some things do.

on another note- 4 days!!!! 4 days and i am completely done with this semester. I CAN'T WAIT for winter break.

1.

exactly one week until this semester is over for me.

i can not put in to words how excited i am.

school.

i wish i knew how to bring up the subject of "i am really unhappy at nau still and don't want to go there anymore" to my parents without breaking down. i tried writing a letter but then i was too chicken to give it to them. last year i asked them about transferring but they said stick it out one more semester, try living in the dorms. and well- i did. flagstaff is just not the place for me. every time i even think about how i'm going to bring this up again i feel like crying. my whole family was so proud of me for getting in and getting scholarships. how can i let them down? but i truly am unhappy here. i mean sure sometimes it's ok; but the majority of the time i just can't wait until i get to go down to phoenix again. i'm there almost every weekend and everyone thinks i'm crazy for it but that is where i feel comfortable. i'm not even sure i even like my major anymore, i really only picked it because i liked it more than everything else. i don't know what to do, i feel so lost.

birthday

so last weekend i went to phoenix since we were having my birthday party on sunday. which was at dave & buster's by the way- lots of fun. i got an email about the screening of where the wild things are (which was on tuesday night) but was a little sad since i have class until 3:35 and didn't think it would be worth it to drive all the way down to phoenix AGAIN just to see a movie. but then, on tuesday, we got out of my class super early! so i hurried getting my stuff together and headed back down to phoenix. me and my mom went to the screening and it was amazing. i teared up at the end. then the next morning (my actual birthday) my mom took me to breakfast at chick fil a and then i drove back up to flagstaff. after i got out of my lab, i waited for stephanie to get out of hers and then we went to tat-fu! i got two dermal anchors in my lower back. i know, it sounds crazy but i like it. then we got some DQ. and then it was time for me to pick up the present cudo sent for me at lauren's house... it's a necklace. a gold necklace. shaped like a heart. with rhinestones around it. and the marine symbol in the middle. and that's all i want to say about that.

i wonder if i'll ever lose my mind

first week of sophomore year: done.

classes aren't too bad yet. but i have SO much reading. kickboxing is a lot of fun, and a good workout. i'm diggin my long weekends.

at the moment, i am a little bit obsessed with motion city soundtrack. especially this song-

if life was always easy, it would be boring. but sometimes, i kind of wish it was...

R.I.P. Summer Vacation

well i'm pretty much all packed up to leave tomorrow. i can't believe how fast the last 3 months have gone. overall i'd say it was a good/fun/memorable summer though. a few rough patches but that's to be expected with any part of life. whatever will i do without alyssa this year? lol. hopefully living in the dorms will make it easier to meet new people. and hopefully i'll meet someone other than skanky boys and potheads. :]

what happens in vegas, stays in vegas...

except herpes. that sh*t will come back with you. (the hangover)

even though we only spent 2 nights there this time, it was still fun. criss angel's believe show was pretty good. the magic wasn't as *WOW* as i had hoped. but i think that was because i had seen some of the tricks on his tv show already. it was very theatrical though. 

this time we went up in the eiffel tower which we've never done before. the view at night is just spectacular. and watching the bellagio's fountain show is really cool from up there. 

i can't believe i move back up to flagstaff in just one short week. one. 

the happiest place on earth

we went to:

• huntington beach
• venice beach
• disnelyand
• california adventure

all of which were a lot of fun. 

i did get a little sunburned though.

going on another mini-vacation 

next week to vegas. we are going

to see criss angel's BELIEVE!

i'm really excited for that. 

and so the countdown begins...

i move in to aspen in 19 days. 

i'm a welcome jack so i get to

move in a day early. better to beat 

the crowds, right? 

when the world around you crumbles he will be strong, he will be strong

i knowwww, i kind of suck at this blogging thing. but here are a few things i've learned so far this summer: 

• even if you really suck at volleyball, it can be really fun
• sometimes ex-boyfriends should stay that way
• scratch that, pretty much ALL the time they should stay that way
• people really love free stuff, especially when it's food
• it doesn't hurt to ask
• new and different plans for the next year can be really exciting and change your whole perspective of things 
• it's nice to splurge sometimes- especially after you've worked hard and put up with irritating customers and coworkers for that money
• it's a really big deal when a celebrity "king" dies, apparently 

When I go down I lift my eyes to you

so far this summer i haven't done much besides work work work! BUT i do like the fact that i'm gonna get a fatty paycheck this friday. (woo!) this week i've got my brother's 8th grade promotion and i'm also going to goldwater's graduation. i can't believe my brother is going to be in high school and all my little freshman are graduating. yesterday, i went to deer valley high school to make a delivery and they were on lunch. some of them look so little! 

p.s.- relient k ♪music♫ makes me extremely happy. 

I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

SO today was pretty fun. went downtown and went in a bunch of shops and we went to the lava tubes! unfortunately none of us brought cameras but there's a picture of it from Google. it was really cool in there. at the end we just sat there for a while with our flashlights off- it was so dark and quiet. very peaceful. well i guess i should actually go study some. finals start tomorrow- at 7:30 a.m. for me. but at least summer is almost here! only 3 days left.

Skyway Avenue- We the Kings

SO i just think this video is way cute

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first blog

SO i'm sitting here on the couch, watching law & order: CI, eatin chicken wings... and i decided to make a blog. hopefully it will get more exciting once summer comes [in 10 days!] but for right now all i've got is my last few days as a freshman at NAU. and let me tell you, flagstaff is not all that exciting. i'm so excited that this semester is coming to an end. i miss phoenix. i miss having money. i miss my friends. i miss my family. i miss my bird. being home for a solid 3 months will be nice.